13 July, 2012

第六个冬天

一转眼  又是冬天
时而放晴时而雨的天气早已习惯
就在一切都理所当然习惯性地应付这个冬天时才发现
是啊  第六个冬天了


重读一年前的字字句句 感觉并不陌生
也许时间飞逝中并没有带走什么
一年后的今天  打直背  想要记下一些


开始工作的第一年结束
一切都在进步
它是人生中的新一章  不止生活态度在改变
就连生活中的角色也不再一样
开始工作后 我慢慢把自己归入‘成人区’
因为开始了自己为自己打拼生活的阶段  为自己负责的角色
也因为这样  每一天大部分的时间都在和自己对话
很想知道跟多的自己  知道接下来该怎么过
也许在别人眼中  我的生活早已定下章程
该和谁过  该在哪儿活  该做什么  都理所当然
可是在澳洲政府努力在想尽办法筛选‘特优人才’
我也开始认真考虑我该落脚的‘家’
与其让别人决定我的去留  不如为自己决定
五年的时间在这里生活
如果一切都和理想中的一样  那我不会有所迟疑
当五年后内心开始动摇  自有它的道理


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十来岁的叛逆出自行为
那二十来岁就出自想法


我并没有叛逆过  一直来规规矩矩过着我‘应该’过的生活
渐渐觉得想要放纵  想做些‘有什么大不了’的事
从小到大被训练下的就是小心翼翼 取悦别人
从来不会表达自己  也甚至不知道自己
我开始认真思考  该怎么让我的感性取代理性
想做就做  不想就罢
没有什么大不了



这个年纪  身边渐渐都围绕着工作 结婚 孩子 朋友 生活
虽然我现在只有工作  也许称得上一点点享受生活中
但我也开始盘算我的另一些
也许这就是女生最伟大的梦想?
我想是  因为我总在她们眼力看到光
我想我也是
我很爱想  因为想没有代价
我常常会想到我八十岁  好的坏的都爱想
可能这就是小心翼翼的毛病
可是有什么大不了
就是喜欢和朋友大聊这些  甚至计划
其实更希望和你也能大聊特聊
没有负担 就只期待


最近在思考这个
沟通 是唯一让两个人继续一起生活的养分
没错  是养分
没有谁没有谁而不能活  也没有人和谁在一起就非死不可
只是该怎么快乐和灌溉那份快乐  就只有沟通
我其实不相信心有灵犀  至少我没有听说有两棵心是相通的
一直来都认为男人在感情里必须主动
现在还是
可是女生也不需要再处在被动
也许往往女生都在期待  以为一点小动作能换来明白
那也得看对象  我们就是不可能有一百分的另一半
男生白目  不理所当然  
在女生把想法告诉你也请你努力消化
至少该做些回应
没有任何一方理所当然明白另一方的感受
其实不论对错  两个人都应该永远支持着彼此
因为只有你会让他/她明白错在哪里
他/她也会让你发现你哪里出错了
沟通不是单方的
两代的婚姻问题怎么也不希望再出现在自己身上


女人可以看不到却不可以听不见
我相信女人都只为了耳朵而活
凡是不需要兑现  只要当下听到了就够得意许久
傻  没错  可也是事实
两个人不就是互助互补
女人往往牺牲一切填满男人的生活
男人应该努力填满那女人的小小脑袋


22 June, 2011

me WHY?


Hi bloggie, how are you?
hmmm.. I'm not so well here...

Has been half year since the previous post hey
soooo much things happened and so much things going on
well, I've got things changed, thing gone, things come across and things stay with me still
maybe too much to recall I reckon? 
so what should do?

MOVE ON!

It's the best answer I suppose.





This week isn't a good week for me.. at all.
I'm struggling with myself, my new kind of life and my days
I should say most of the moody thoughts are come from my new job
but it doesn't mean I am not happy with it
I'm absolutely happy to get the job
that's something I want so badly for long time and finally I am lucky enough to squeeze myself into this tight market
but yea... that's not the prefect life as I thought
There is always a BUT

其实人永远都奇怪 
因为你永远都不知道自己要的是什么
永远有要求不完的事或要不完的东西
也许吧
我一直对自己要求太多 我要很好 我要独立 
我要求我的未来 我的生活
我也有很多幻想
当它没有照着我想的走我其实很慌张

开始工作  其实一切都还不错
虽然会有些鸡毛蒜事让我闷气 可是有什么人事混杂我每看过咧
可是啊  这洋鬼子的‘缓慢步伐’是我最大的挑战
我每天最大的烦恼就是找更多的事情做!
其实我很清楚  一切都得慢慢来
可是工作下班回家当然要来些发发牢骚
好采有个他在听

我想我们多少有在担心
工作和读书要怎么一起前进
我只有一个办法 就是一切面对改变
因为我总觉得 感情里不是每一件东西都得踏步于原地
我们还在长大 还在进步 还在学习和配合
我在努力应付我生活的改变  也很努力分享所有的改变
因为我们还要努力很久很久 对吧

现在开始工作  weekend是我最期待的
总是期待来个什么  做些什么  反正就是不想浪费唯一属于自己的时间
所以三个星期连续自己出去逛街 最后发现 这样反而更难过
唉 我喜欢自己逛街 也不喜欢自己逛街

Hmmm....
 这几天bibo去了Sydney
当然一个人被留在这里真的不开心
旅行本来就是我每天在幻想的事 然后因为工作不能去 然后工作又没有什么作为
argghh 真的是身不由己 很讨厌!
也因为这样我对着日历发呆很久  真的啊  所有的off day都开始变得很神圣
圣诞节  情人节 周年纪念 生日 都还在等发落
呵呵 来猜猜我们今年能一起过哪个咧
家人情人我永远都不可能分得开  因为家人是情人  情人是家人
but I think we can find our way to deal with this =)

工作前  我很习惯告诉bibo等我作工之后要做什么买什么
开始赚钱了  才发现时间是有钱也买不到的东西
不过乘年轻 当然要打拼打拼
只是现在的我开始认真思考怎么把握时间
很多时候时间真的会带走很多机会  甚至人
我不希望再有什么遗憾出现
能做什么就做什么  想见什么人就见
下次下次  有多少个下次呢


再给我多一点时间
我会习惯现在的生活还有会知道我的新目标

加油!=)


明天bibo就回来了
他难得的假期还有一半  不过能做的事应该有限吧
之前幻想的假期也都没有实现
这就是我每次很失望的事。。。
就再期待下次吧!








31 January, 2011

Halo Bibo, Happy 4th Anniversary =)


When I woke up and on my phone this morning 
"Oh, it's 30 Jan again!"
yes, again. 
The 4th 30 Jan for us =)
things were flashed back in my mind with the very sweet taste and very warm feel
it reminds me of the 'traffic lights mimi' (every year will do I suppose?)
hehe =p
thanks to the Sultan park day so we have the 131 anniversary ^^
I do feel thankful by giving myself a chance to try and believe 
I am glad you are the one I met and who'll staying in my life forever


Well.... I know I'm going to repeat the same thing as previous years did
but can I still say ThankQ to you, my dearest DaDa Bibo Baobei for being my all time companion for the past 4 years
I really feel loved and love you more and more and more
when things flashed back in mind I realise you've done so much for our relationship
you're trying and learning bit by bit to be my prefect boyfriend
I'm working hard with you too to be a prefect girlfriend =)
maybe this become the best part of our relationship?
Hand in hand and never give up.

Time fading and we both change and not keeping the same as when we first met
I'm get ready for this and not afraid of it
as I hope our relationship just like a lil tree
grows day by day and become bigger bigger and bigger
takes time to grow and you wont know how it will be
but something you can know for sure is it will be stronger and stronger
I'm somehow look forward to all the new chapters of our life
I'm sure there are lots of new stuff coming in and not boring as what people think
=)




Hmmm....

What a shame we are not together on this special day this year
and this will happen to valentine's day and our birthday too =(
 but it's ok lah since there are endless chances for us to celebrate on these
 I suppose? teehee~
so take it easy and wait for next year celebrations! ^^




 I Love You, my dear.
Thanks for everything






11 January, 2011

It is sick



With the arrival of 2011 the world doesn't turn into any better
should you have to admit our planet is sick
a serious bad sick

It is not beautiful as it used to be
snow storm, flash flood, bushfire, even summer snow happened
things change but only the bad one comes



Australia haven't get any peace for some time
after wild fire last year here we've got the non-stop rainfalls
Brisbane is under flood threat now
the whole city enter into serious flood alert and hundreds of family being evacuated
all shops were closed and forced to shut down
we can really feel the fear around
this is just a dark age to Queensland
only I am so close to this tragedy and only I am threatened 
I realised having a peaceful and painless world is so so precious


I just hope this will turn out fine soon
no one deserves all these tough time and suffers
maybe we just need to do something to safe the planet 
praying for all the victims and I hope Brisbane not go any serious flood level




29 December, 2010

The whole new start!


Hi guys =)
has been awhile I'm not connected to web
and now still, we haven't get internet connection at home yet
but luckily I have my lil iphone with huge data remaining in account
so here I am to bring you the new story of ours~


Yes, we crossed 4331kms from west to east
and now we have a new place to call 'home'
even though we are just moving interstate but few things have made us feel different
here is humid indeed especially during the flooding season now in east coast
temperature is stable throughout the week too
it's not good at all to have this non-stop raining period which makes thousands of people homeless 
one third of Queensland is terribly flooded 
so since the day we reached here we hardly get dry out on streets


Well, hv to admit Brisbane city is much more happening and big than what we thought
lots of buildings and towers, wide range of shops.. 
really like what Peggy said: shopping heaven! 
and people here are quite friendly too but with faster pace
overall, feel good with the city =)


The Brisbane River definitely makes it a better city
at least you have another transport to travel around
but I still like the clearer water in Swan River


Looks sunny and bright out there huh?
that was the only day that we walked under the sun


While walking in the city at the first day we're lucky enough to know her - Wendy
I think we had half an hr talk and she basically told us everything that we need to know about Brissy
she's such a friendly and helpful lady, really really sweet on her

Hmm... let's see the suburbs
here they have the so-called Queenslander 
they are basically just like our kampung style wooden house
some of them are really doggy
cant really describe and it doesn't show that 'bad' in pic tho
sooo... imagine yourselves la =D




Then after one week getting house and settled everything 
finally got the chance to go to UQ


It's really a gorgeous uni, vintage, grand and peaceful



I dont feel like study anymore but somehow it's still good to live in uni
only little on shoulder and just dream on freedom 




Okay~~~
the most excited thing is our new home!
we got a lil cozy place at Indooroopilly
great location where less than 5mins to train station, bus interchange and big shopping centre
and we go shopping centre like everyday
like the huge foodcourt and all the big and new brand shops


Our new sedap corner =)
are you able to guess how much is the couch?
it's just $50!!!
but! there's always a BUT (Barney's rule)
the couch has a cut =p






I love the two exits balcony through the bedroom and living room
and all the sliding doors and windows make the home bright and shine 



That's the room that we're going to rent it out
fully furnished and with own bathroom
the two girls from Taiwan will be moving in this Thursday 

So, that's it =)



Hohoho~ Santa just passed the town huh?
teehee
this year Christmas is just way too wet to east coast
but this didn't stop us from giving it a bit special bits
go all the way to city in rain then we had this 'ok ok' dinner
after that we then went to the King George Square
it's just simply as that but it romantic enough for me d =) 



Has been 2 weeks since we hit on this land
everything went smoothly and hope will keep this on 
the journey is not easy at all indeed
but having each other just beside is the best companion to go through every challenge  


Things are checked one by one 
the next thing to do is start to apply jobs
earn earn earn~~~




*Waiting for internet connection *

  

14 December, 2010

The day before leaving


Is the last day be in Perth and we'll be leaving for Brisbane tomorrow
how fast time fade huh
has been 3 and half years since we flied here
I'm just not quite willing to flash back all the past
I knew they are brilliant and great 
keep 'em still there til the day I start missing Perth so no sadness can flood my mind

So, how's the life for the past 3 years?
hmm.. It has been blissful, stunning, glorious and full with happiness
I've been gone through so much and grow in the way I should be
fruitful, I would say =)

Still have a bit llzz haven't clear in house
last minute it's me! =p
a lot to update actually
so til then~ see you in Brisbane~




  

20 November, 2010


Huuuu... It was 39 degree during the afternoon today
we are about to step into summer but I just haven't enjoy enough for the spring yet tho

Hot days always kill people with Lazinesssss
so yea, I was slacking for the whole day today with the train conductor game
feel guilty and so blogging before heading bed
but then HL kinda efficient on his packing 
he is Ready to back home!

Hmmm... Nothing much to share lately
other than the addiction to Instagram I'm still staying in the normal pace
so, maybe share some un-post pics then =)

Secret Garden
  2 weeks ago we went to the Secret Garden cafe at South Perth
it's like Finally after 2 years I think! 
I was surprised by the big backyard that hide at the back of the shop
it's really a secret garden you'd never know without a try
well... we din get great seat that afternoon
but on the left hand side are the backyard seats with all the trees and flowers
chilling and first class enjoyment~

Stuffed Garden Mushroom
 Da-dang~ our order for that afternoon
I totally love their not-stingy-greens on side and one thing need to be highlighted is their Fries!
yumyum~ drooling**
that is the best fries we've ever had so far
really really really melting us

Before heading to uni for the last tut =)
Bibo's grilled chicken fillet plate

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Earlier before we were here for dinner with HL and Siyuan
a country style pizzeria, serves great foods and I love the atmosphere there
- Allegro Pizza



The love - Smoke salmon fettucini
The other day went there with PeiHui during her lunch break
I prefer lunch serving size than dinner =p


Love no.2 - Mushroom Bolognese Fettucini




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Summer approaching hence need to shape your body asap!
heehee~ boys are fighting with it yet having fun and ZL
XDXD


Who can lift the body???




All Passed!!! but I failed... lolx


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After almost 2 weeks selling we decided to bring it to the last clearing
- second 摆地摊 Sunday
woke up at 4am early in the morning, reached at 5am and get a spot
at that time was bright and sunny already and people started bargains
That was really a long long day for four of us
cos not so crowded as we expected and warm up to 35 degree
Can you imagine that, we were 赤裸裸 sitting under the sun =p

It was so-called "bohcelli" day.. not much business =(  
anyway we've cleared almost everything
sold, gave away and donated
now the worry is on packing~



Lazy to serve! XD

Taken by HL~

Random Sunday (purposely took for ZLZ) XD
FaceTime fever
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Well... the Royal house is in the How I met your mother风
heehee~ 
and I'm always easily get tempting by the food in dramas
I know it sounds stupid but thats me XD
So... after the best burger topic in HIMYM I'm crazily after burger
yes! I want burger! =p
 and he bring me to here - Grilled



4/5 I would rate them but just for the burger 
the fries lookes like the secret garden's one but it's not
quite disappointed tho =(





Hmmm.... that's basically my days ^_____^

count down-ing 1 month to leave Perth